Where are you knuckles?

I am just so fucking depressed.
I doubt I'm going to have the strength or the motivation to do any videos for awhile.

the one thing that mattered to me most, besides my boyfriend, was my dog; knuckles.
Over the last day I've considered the following..

-He ranaway
-Dog pound took him in.
-He'd dead.
-Someone took him for themselves.

What should I do?
I mean, I've been constantly crying, never feeling good.
What a Thanksgiving...Happy thanksgiving.
This year I am not greatful for anything.

The only thing i have been greatful for was having that dog.
but he's gone and I have no idea where he is, and what he is doing, and if he's ok.

Knuckles please be okay. That is all.

Kisses to all. Knuckles come home. I won't stop looking for you. I promise baby.

Heartache & update

I've been slacking.
Bad news and good news.

Well not for you guys, but more for me. Just spilling out my stupid personal life, but let me make a few clarifications.

-I saw New Moon, it is now like my favorite movie in the whole effing world, like I can watch it again and again and again, and I wouldn't get tired. TEAM JAKE-WARD. More Jacob though because the movie was mainly more about it, but anyways.
-I also saw The fourth Kind, it wasn't the best thing in the world, i mean I actually yawned a couple of times. I wasn't really interested.
-CODMW2 is the shit.

Alright, so anyways.
I feel like time is going by fast, but anyways. I feel bad for myself. I've been through so much that I don't even deserve. I mean, it has nothing to do with my family, or my love life. In fact, the family is doing great. We're closer and it's awesome. No more fighting. And, even the boyfriend. He's a great support system, always down to make me laugh and I admire him for that; for caring about me.

But just the social life in general. it's not going so well. I feel like my friendship with a very close friend is about to go down the toilet for no reason over a guy whom i consider to be meaningless, yet she doesn't see that. I mean, why would i care about him when I have a boyfriend of my own to love and be with? I don't know. I have been hearing some vicious rumors though.

I've been having the worst heartaches, like not just emotionally or like mentally, but I can feel it. All day the pains have been growing sharp. It hurts. If at this rate, it keeps on, I'm going to have to check it out.


Alright, enough about my personal life. I promised some youtube videos. I keep saying I'm going to do them and I
never do them. There's a BLACK FRIDAY coming up, and I'm going to be buying. Definitely. I will show you guys a haul video on youtube at least by Sunday max. I haven't done any makeup updates either. I'm going to have to fix that too. :|


Kisses to all. <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

Alright, today was my birthday, so let me start on saying happy birthday to me.
so many peopleeeeee, im so surprised.. said happy birthday, even people and teachers i didnt know! I was flabbergasted.

My friends put together a largeeee banner !
OMFG i was definitely surprised <3 thank you once again. :)
I actually got my digital camera, im soooo in love with it.
Thank you aunt!
Me and my aunt cleared things up.
im so much closer to my family. :]

I had such a great birthday.
I didnt have a party but i can honestly say this was the best birthday party ever.
I'm happy. I am. I have the bestest boyfriend, family, and friends.
I am a happy girl, I really am. :]

:O A few point outers, future tutorials.

I fixed my laptop, well my mother did. and I love her!

I'm going to be doing a curling hair tutorial on extensions, :) BE PREPARED!

I'm going to be doing a shitload of makeup tutorials too. :)

My birthday is in 7 days! (november 16) I have no idea what I want, or what I'm going to do in fact!

I'm not in school today, have to head to the doctor's and check something out!

I'll be on to tell you more about what you have missed and what you should be looking forward for.

Kisses to all, Sue-ki<3

LONG TIME NO TALK, update.

okay i didnt purposely not blog.
I've been through it all. LIKE LITERALLY.

But im back, so thats good. missed me? i missed you too.
alot has happened so far.

im in a relationship. :) and happy. uhm, halloween was killer. :) and i was a showgirl.
so iwasnt lady gaga, or that bunny, but im planning on being a bunny for next year.
anyhow, im dying my hair again. i know im crazy. :) but imgoing to go darker, like black :) i also havent gotten my contacts yet. im working on it.

my birthday is technically in 14 days. i have no idea what i want.
i need some mac lipsticks, i think thats what im gonna ask for, for my birthday

i mean, im tired of replacing my mac shades with avon concealer, but hey, im desperate. i really dont like dark lips on me.

my ovaries were like burning today, it was too much to handle, i dont know how i got rid of the pain. TIME. lol.

ive been through so much trouble. like losing my parents trust after some incident i rather not speak of afetr homecoming, and then i got more in trouble when my mom found out i was at a bar with baby and wesley and kayla one day when i told my parents i was going to a football game, but whatever. so my sister is 4 months pregnant now, well actually shes 3 months and 3 weeks. :)

im sitll hoping for a girl.
well i need to come up with a youtube video asap because i havent been on that shizzle in a while.

i twitter alot though so thats how you can catch up with me.

twitter.com/zomgwatabarbie

well im going to be twittering & watching the messengers.
OH paranormal activity is horrible to watch. i couldnt sleep for a couple of days but im better now, im looking forward to the 4th kind though.

kisses to all<3

WOW.

Til i can't even see you.

Hi babes, oh my goshness.

its been forever since i have blogged but i have great excuses.

1-im sick out of the ass for the last couple of days.

2-been caught up on my social life lately.

3-my laptop got fried again cus i spilled alcohol on it. whoospy me, im so clumsy right?

well my mom said that she will fix it againnnn as a birthday present. i feel so grateful.

my life has been turning around

'school is decent.

but im already sucking ass in one of my classes.

who gets an average of 10 in chemistry?

sad right?i know.

i honestly dont care but whatever.

theres this one guy ive been talking to lately, and we nonstop tlk and we both like each other and i really do see something in him.

my sister literally got me sick on purpose which im bummed out.

my tonsils hurt like there is no tomorro. at least i dont have school until friday so i can get better.

uhm, for the first time of my life, i tried coldstones ice cream. it is delish i tell ya, so many things to choose from in that place ! ahh %$%^&*

well my stomach has been hurting all day and my breathing has been hard to deal with. not because i have another nose congestion but my chest actually hurts when i breathe. :/ so there's that but anyway im sick and uber tired, so im going to bed. ill try to be on more often with my aunts laptop. well toot a loo<3>

FLU FREE & update.

Alright, here's the deal.

I'm flu free babes. Yup, it's true.

Thank heavens : )

Now, the next thing I have to look out for is my period.

To the girls, we all know how it hits us.

To the boys, suck it up, we watch you jerk your shafts until you splerge semen all over the place.

So anyways, yeah I'm going to end up getting it soon, as mature I'm being.

Might as well call it my menstration. I don't here that word very often. It's period this, period that.

Sigh.

Anyways, I'm getting it soon and it's going to suck as always because of my stupid menstrual disorder.. Dymennoreah.

It can lead to..

-Endometriosis

which can lead to..

-Ovarian Cancer (let's hope it doesn't get that far as I mature and grow up in my near future.)

I just don't have the balls to go to a GYN clinic.

I don't want anyone putting tools in my Verizon Mobile<--(Vagina)

I don't know what to be for Halloween.

I was thinking about being:

[ ] Lady Gaga

[ ] Bunny

[ ] Barbie

My friend Samuel told me to be a Lady Gaga Bunny. I told him to stop being stupid. lol.

Any suggestions? I'd gladly take them.

I want to go trick or treating with a shitload of heads this year. I KNOW I say that every year.

But I actually want to make it happen this year. I want to have fun. LOTS OF FUN FUN FUN.

You guys, I have man issues. Like one minute I have feelings for an ex.

Another minute I'd fall for a new man in my life.

Another minute I have to deal with clingy & desperate men. Ugh.

Another minute I go back to people who take me as a rebound--and the sad part? I let them.

Eh, FuckMyLife.

A friend of mine, his name is Alex. He seems like a charming man. I met him not too long ago.

We talk constantly. He invited me to go to this game at his school. A football game in Carteret. He's a junior. And he kept asking me, and insisting for me to go.

Is he asking me out? Not like boyfriend status, but like a date? I don't know. I doubt it, but he's

cool b e a n s.

As I mentioned earlier in previous blogs, I'm dying my hair and getting contacts.

So,

blue eyed brunette, here I come.

Well my to do list for the meantime:

Spread my birthday wishlist[clothes & non clothes lists]

Dye my hair

Buy my contacts

Figure out my Halloween Costume.

I must go. And bid thee farewell.

Kisses to all.

xoxo

Sue-ki

Ok, so I have the flu.

Hey there.

I haven't updated in a bit, but I'm trying to pull through.

I just got off my asthsma nebulizer. My hands are sha-sha-shaking! They always do when I'm on that stupid machine. That's one of the side effects that discomfort me. Well.

As my title line says, I have the flu and a sinus infection too. OMG.

I haven't been in school since Thursday. It's technically sunday now, and I doubt I'm going on monday either. I mean, I can't be in school with the flu. Sheesh. Anyways, I barelu can breathe.

And my dog threw the worst farts ever today. Oh em gee. I wish I was in school already.

I feel like doo doo. I spent time with my best friend over the weekend. we went to the mall and it was really nice to bond with her after a long time. I honestly can say I had fun.

At zumies there was this one guy that looked exactly like seth and it just drove me freakin insane.

I can't wait til my birthday. At the beginning of october, im thinking about dying my hair again.

I know, I'm crazy. But I miss being a full brunette, so I'm dying it like a chocolate black brown color by the beginning of october. Also, I'm getting contacts. Blue eyed brunette? Has a ring to it, well I saw hancock today for the first time ever and i think it was a really good movie.

There's this movie or whatever called paranormal acitivity? very peculiar.

well my hands keep shaking, so i'm going to go take care of that. Hopefully I get better soon.

Kisses to all <3

sueki.

2 times in a week

I'm home sick again. First it was Monday, and now today. Like what's wrong with me. I'm on my way to the doctors to find out. I feel like I have a small flu, perhaps a cold, but who am I kiddin, I aint no doctor to know for sure. But my symptoms are just unbearable and it seems like more come in like:

veryyy stuffy nose.
hard to breathe
cough
small headache
tiredness.
lack of hunger.
diarreah?

yeah I know..

it sounds like aflu but i need to find out. I realized I havent been making youtube videos. School takes up most part of my time and when Im home i dont have time to do anythinggg. So this weekend is coming up and hopefully ill be better then to makeup some tutorials. well im off to the doctors.

Get well me. : )
Kisses to all.
xoxo

My bday wishlist : )

Birthday november 16


Assassin's Creed 2

Call of Duty Modern Warfare2

Pink Xbox controller.

New headset for xbox

Left4Dead2

HelloKitty necklace

Hellokitty ring

Update"1st week of school

School's actually good. people noticed how much I changed over the summer. And I'm getting positive feeds on how I dress and just how I look overall. It's a real boost of confidence. I almost did get in a fight though in 5th period lunch. ALREADY, I KNOW. Over a seat, so I told the girl to eat it if she was so desperate for it and I left. Anyways, my school had a football game at 7 and we did incredible. 38-0. Go panthers. My ex told me to go because he was playing and so I went. Put a #12 on my face. I left at halftime. Personal complications. But, I think everything is going to get better.

I know I haven't been updating alot, but I am crammed this weekend with so many things to do especially alot of reading and schoolwork. I think I'm getting sick. probably explains why I mean, I was in the rain for more den 2 hours. I was really upset yestrurday, but I'm not going to get into all of that. Well anyways Ill try to post some new vids up as soon as I can. Well I';; catch you guys later. Kisses to all. <3


p.s God bless America
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MORE EXTENSIONS

Alright well yesturday, I bought extensions. They are beautiful and brown with highlights. I am so happy, I had them on when I went to the mall and I looked amazing with the,. I'm trying to build confidence wearing them around in public. I mean, i am so used to short hair so I feel naked when I take the extnsions off. School's in 3 days.
I'm going to be super busy this weekend before school starts on tuesday.
friday I went shopping, then today i went shopping again. Tomorro I'm going to a bbq/pool paarty, and then a football game. monday, I'm going tanningg, and then tuesday is school. The side of myy shin is very pulled, I don't know why. But It hurts alot. I'm scared if I keep stretching it, I'll get a charlie horse.
Well anyways,I feel good.
I can'twait for soccer season soon.

Oh, few random point outers.
strawberry milk by nyx is a lipstick I have fell in love with.
I'm running out of my mac creme de nude lipstick so I found that one and am in love.
nyx eye pencils, i have one in milk, black, and silver.
I LOVE THEM.,
ive been takign biotin for about 3 weeks and noticed my nails have been getting really strong, there growing faster too.

idk if i have mentioned this but my older sister is pregnant, my dad isnt too too happy. my mom is really excited so life is good. well sometimes. i dont know. ive been feeling like shit lately.

if your looking for a good flat iron, i recommend kiyoseki withthe chi infusion serum, or a pro nano babyliss straigthener along with the chi infusion. trust me, even by wetting your hair after awhile, youre hair starts taking the straightness that you won't be able to curl your natural hair (if it's curly). Crazy right? I know.

I posted 3 videos today on youtube. check em out.
youtube.com/zomgWATAbarbie

kisses to all.<3

xoxo suki

MY FIRST MIGRAINE

Yesturday, I was crying my eyes out.
I always get blamed for everything.
I'm always falsely accused.
Jeez.
I was crying so hard to the point where I was hyperventilating into an asthsma attack.
I didn't have my inhaler, and I couldn't even stop. It was horrible.
So I had a 5 hour nap after like 4 hours of crying and I woke up at 9pm. I woke up with the biggest headache on the face of this godamn planet. I was like WTF. I thought it would eventually go away. I had to get off of Halo at 11pm because it was hurting so bad.
I went into bed at 1am. 2am comes. It won't go away and I can't sleep because it hurts so bad.
3am comes. Still. 4am comes. Still. 5am comes. Still. 530am, it won't go away. I felt nautiousss.
My eyes were so sensitive to a speck of light. My eyes felt like they were throbbing and the pain kept tossing back and forth, omfg. I almost died. I knew I had a migraine. I knew it.

I mean, that was the worst headache in the world. I took action. I took three, 500mg aspirins and I felt better when I woke up about a half hour ago. I feel soooo much better.
who knew you can get migraines from crying so much. AHHH.
That was my first migraine ever and it was such a bitch to me last night.

I also found out my older sister is pregnant.
I'm soo like superbuelahfied. lol.
Everyoneee in both families [in laws too] know, except for my parents,
my sister has no idea how 2 tell them.
She wants to surprise them in a unique way,
I bought her a pink baby bottle piggybank[we're hoping for a girl]
and I told her ot give it to my mother and she can figure it out on a night out to dinner.
She said she'll think about it.

I need a good cry

Okay, i thought everything was going for the better..
everything seemed to just turn around and get worse.

my family, i feel as if they are against me.
screaming at me.. accusing me, whatever the case may be.
i honestly cannot wait to get the fuck out. this year coming up for school, i'm leaving home early, and coming home late, so i can avoid them for 3/4 of the day. therefore, by the time i get home, i have enough time only to shower, eat, do homework, and a little free time on the xbox or my laptop before i sleep.
thats my plan, to avoid the people i live with as much as possible.

I talk to this guy, who moved, and i cant see him like i used to. which sucks hardcore.

xbox is making me stress, and the stress has been making me suck badly online.
im this close to selliing it.

i suck at life.

i mean, have you ever had those moments where you feel like you were in an emo person's shoes and you just wanted to cry everything out? i feel like doing that... right now.
and i am stressing, dying for school to come so it cant take me away from cruel people.

yes, i like to run away from my problems

my little sister has been treating me like shit lately too. it kinda hurts, like i may not show it.

i may laugh alot or smile alot, but dammit, im hurting bad.
i dont know if im just being a girl.. or im taking shit over the top.
but im sensitive and i easily stress for nething.

my whole world is literally crashing down on my shoulders. im piercing my own lip next week and i dont care who tells me no.

p.s i wanna cry so bad, but im not alone..

SUSHI NIGHT

ALright, omfg. I came home a few hours and I needed to share my experience.

I went to a sushi resturaunt in New Brunswick, New Jersey.
Me and my gals were dressed up and everything.
The resturaunt was beautiful, calm, relaxing.
It was the perfect way for us to be together to just bond.
Anyways, we didn't know what to order.
The first thing though was we wanted some California rolls.
That was the entree along with a salmon terriyaki dish.
Our appetizers first was this soup.
It had uhm, like tofu in it and seaweed.
The worsttttt thing I have ever put in my mouth.
It tasted liek pee and me and my girls almost died. They were watching us eat this nasty soup.
And we were dying of laughter because we tried saying "mm" and "yum" and "interestinggg.."
muahahaha >:D
anyways, after that... we got our california rolls..
Our california rolls were really good. They had this green thick sour thing on the side which i thought was smushed avocados... it wasnt huns.

i took the whole thing and put it on oneeeee california roll and started choking and freaking out.
omfggg, i was horrified, the taste killed me and i thought the raw fish on the side wasn't sour or anytrhing, but cool and fresh... it was sour too and spicyy! it drove me crazyyyyy omfg..
my throat burned and i drank my whole drink entirely.. thank god the asians weren't there to see that because i didn't want to disrespect them. Thanks to the sauce, i ruined my appetite of wanting any more california rolls.

now we were all served with salmon terriyaki which was this lovely salmon, cooked well, fried..yum, and it had what tasted like soy sauce. The soy sauce killed it, i scraped it away with ym chop sticks. The brocoli was real good and the carrots that came aside. We had our own rice bowls and i was a pro at the cho sticks. I put too much soy sauce on my white rice, and stopped eating it after it was 1/4 empty. The bottom was mostly drenched. The tab was like 60$ for 3 alone. The food wasn't even that good. LAST time, i go there. Unless I order something else.

After we left the place, we drove home.

omfg forget that.
My sister, she had to pee, because we just kept laughing about stupid things and we were making funny faces and everything with the food. I actually ate tofu. lol. gross.
Anyways, the other sister, she dropped the chopsticks, and the asian dude saw. it was hilarious. She was trying to get my other sister to pick it up, and the asian walks up to us and gives her a new pair. aahahahahaha . it was hilarious. omfg. There was one asian guy. he was soo hot. omfg.
im glad i looked good. anyways. my sister, she had to pee because she was laughing hard. she peed! omfggggg. muahahhahaha.
As we were leaving, i kicked this thing and it almost knocked over. The dude was looking and i was trying to play it off. lmfao.

okay, nowww. as we were driving home, my sister had to pee. I blasted her music and we started screaming at people. lol. she kept laughing and me and my sis were trying to tickle her as she drove. tickle her to the point she peed. we almost did it, but she ran sooo fast when we got home and she made it to the bathroom just in time. to tell you the truth, i think she pissed onherself a bit, but was afraid to admit it.

this night was so much fun ...

well im so tireddd ! so ill update sooner or later. kisses to all. muahzzzz. xoxo suki<3

UPDATE.

AHH !
Alright.
Hey lovelies.
I got uber duber super sick since like Saturday but I'm getting better... Alot better actualy.
So the worst is over. It seems like the good news keeps pouring in, like schools around the corner which makes me really excited because I hate and not doing anything but making you guys videos and playing videogames. Don't get me wrong, I love making videos for you guys, but I miss homework and social acitivites and all of that mumbo jumbo. Anyhow, I GOT MY LAPTOP.
I'm happy, I posted a YT video on it, relating to it and extensions. YES, EXTENSIONS. I'll post a pic of these cute ones I grabbed my hands on. And also, i ordered more, not sure if i'm going to where them toschool. who knows, teenagers are evil and if someone ripped my extensions out, I will be dirty.

Anyhow, I'm going to the mall sooner or later, probably dying my hair differently. I'm crazy i know. I always do something different to my hair but I easily get bored of it. I'm thinking about leaving my bangs blonde and dying the rest brown, then ill have the bloind extensions , so it should look pretty cool. anyways, im off. take care babes. Kisses xoxoxo.

STRESSS FREEE

Ah hey people, I managed to finished my summer assignments. JEEZ/ Feels great. Also, they rescheduled my dentist appointment. It feels great! I was so nervousss/ AH/ well anyways, This summer I hope to finish it off with a quick tan before school. :] I've been super busy lately. I'm getting my laptop hopefully this Friday coming up, I'm sooo excited :] I'll be making YT vids out of the assssss. :} well see ya. I have a slumber party to tend to. Much love. KISSES

Good morning, good noon, good eve, good night once again. Last night, I didn't end up hanging out with my friends, I decided to cram on some school assignments due in September. Ok, that's a lie. I was too busy glued to my screen playing saintsrow2 like a madman. Bad? I think so. But anyways, the good part at least I'm on the last mission. : ) That's good right? I think so. Anyhow. My To do list is posted in this blog. I need this and I wish I can shit all this money out but I'm looking for another job. Babysitting was not for me. Well here it is!

Pink digital camera. I need another digital camera. It'll be really helpful for my hair and makeup tutorials on youtube since it's youtube capture. : }

pink controller. I'm tired of looking at my white controller. GAH I need color. 50-60$

Hellokitty covers. Oh mannnnn. :) so beautiful. 200-250$

Pink dell laptop? Either that or just an hp notebook. 800$

Chi silk infusion mix. I ran out, and I need this pronto. No more then 40$

Babyliss flat iron. Not this one specifically. the one I'm aiming for is 75$

And last but not least, my xbox 1 year membership live. The 25th of August my live will expire and I will have to renew it pronto. 50$






Well Talk to ya later. I got some work to work on.
Kisses.

There's so much on my mind now.

My summer book I am currently reading.

Good morning , good afternoon, good evening, or good night perhaps depending on what time of the day you are currently reading this. There's so much on my mind, like I have mentioned. This summer I've made a to do list. I'll probably post it up here for curiosity to see. Also, I have this book I'm currently reading. It's called, "Brave New World" by Audous Huxley. I don't really like the whole science-fiction plot but it is a must for me for my sophmore year. This summer I'm dying to get my lip pierced.Heck, I'll probably do it myself. I tried to back in January but that didn't work out well, for I gave up half way and my stupid self didn't have anything to put in the hole afterwards.

I realize I'm a little too fast. I'm getting a little too curious, ya know?

Like my older sister says, "Susan, you're acting all growed up." Yes.. "groweddd."

This guy that I have been liking for like four months started school already and we barely have time to talk until yesturday he all of a sudden wants to be all mushy gushy with me. I didn't know what to do with that and I just built up anger and frustration on him instead of supporting him with school and such. He tells me blogs are stupid but I like to write.

My ex came in the picture the other day. I don't know what to do out this because I mean we've been distant for like a year or so and he unexpectedly just came into my life. It's nice though, to see what has changed since then.

I'm stressing, I mean not like grown up stressing- migrant causing stress. But like clean stressing. My summer has become a complete failure. There's roughly 3 weeks left and I have so much things I want to do that I know I wont be able to do. Also, I got to find a way to understand this epic reading assignment. I mean, this summer, thankfully, I only had 2 classes that I had to do assignments for next year. (No not summer school homework, it's a required assignment for the upcoming year.) Well anyways, I already finished one class's assignments, which I am so proud of myself. (I don't know how I managed.) But it took me a decent 3 weeks 24/7 to complete it. I wonder how long this Brave New World is going to take me. I'm going to try finish reading it today and tomorrow.

I had a weird dream last night. It was winter, and I was in a thong pulling pranks with this white guy I've never seen in my life. I don't know, weird.

Well It's 11:55am now. So I'm still in bed. I need a pink computer desk.. I'm so throwing this one out afterwards sometime around next month.

Well, I'm off. Today, I'm hanging out with my old friend Victoria and a close friend named Chino. That should be fun. Chino came back from Texas and surprised me by calling me and to open the back door. I was in the middle of a halo game, and we still won by the time I got back. But it was amazing the way he planned it. Victoria and I were best friends since literally Kindergarten. After our trio with Cassandra split (she had to moved), we kind of went into our separate ways slowly, but I'm hoping that can change after all these years.

Alright, now I'm off. Love ya's.

Kisses to all.

Daily makeup routine

Hey loves, it's me sue. I decided to post my first blog on my daily makeup routine. If I'm not going out, and I just want to look fresh and casual, I've included the makeup below in pictures and words. I'm babysitting my sister's puppy, and since chowder(the puppy) is sleepying, I have the time to do this for you. :) Hope you enjoy.




--------------------------------------Daily Casual Makeup----------------------------------

I finish my look off with a bonne bell lipgloss. I love the way they smell. 7$ at any store.

My favorite nude lipstick, creme de nude by mac. 15$ . I never leave home without it. I end up buying one like every other month!If you're looking for a great nude lipstick, try it, or myth.

This bronzer, I recently ran out, I'm going to have to buy more, by victoria secret! 15$ I love it. Very pigmented, and I always put it on my cheeks.

I use lashblast, waterproof by covergirl. Really good for the eyelashes, curl my eyelashes with ELF eyelashcurler 8$

Smolder by mac. I use a little of this, and afterwards, smudge it a bit as I reach further away from inner eyelids. 15$

Almay liquid eyeliner. I create wings on the outer eyes, followed up by a thin line above lashes. 5$