Where are you knuckles?

I am just so fucking depressed.
I doubt I'm going to have the strength or the motivation to do any videos for awhile.

the one thing that mattered to me most, besides my boyfriend, was my dog; knuckles.
Over the last day I've considered the following..

-He ranaway
-Dog pound took him in.
-He'd dead.
-Someone took him for themselves.

What should I do?
I mean, I've been constantly crying, never feeling good.
What a Thanksgiving...Happy thanksgiving.
This year I am not greatful for anything.

The only thing i have been greatful for was having that dog.
but he's gone and I have no idea where he is, and what he is doing, and if he's ok.

Knuckles please be okay. That is all.

Kisses to all. Knuckles come home. I won't stop looking for you. I promise baby.

Heartache & update

I've been slacking.
Bad news and good news.

Well not for you guys, but more for me. Just spilling out my stupid personal life, but let me make a few clarifications.

-I saw New Moon, it is now like my favorite movie in the whole effing world, like I can watch it again and again and again, and I wouldn't get tired. TEAM JAKE-WARD. More Jacob though because the movie was mainly more about it, but anyways.
-I also saw The fourth Kind, it wasn't the best thing in the world, i mean I actually yawned a couple of times. I wasn't really interested.
-CODMW2 is the shit.

Alright, so anyways.
I feel like time is going by fast, but anyways. I feel bad for myself. I've been through so much that I don't even deserve. I mean, it has nothing to do with my family, or my love life. In fact, the family is doing great. We're closer and it's awesome. No more fighting. And, even the boyfriend. He's a great support system, always down to make me laugh and I admire him for that; for caring about me.

But just the social life in general. it's not going so well. I feel like my friendship with a very close friend is about to go down the toilet for no reason over a guy whom i consider to be meaningless, yet she doesn't see that. I mean, why would i care about him when I have a boyfriend of my own to love and be with? I don't know. I have been hearing some vicious rumors though.

I've been having the worst heartaches, like not just emotionally or like mentally, but I can feel it. All day the pains have been growing sharp. It hurts. If at this rate, it keeps on, I'm going to have to check it out.


Alright, enough about my personal life. I promised some youtube videos. I keep saying I'm going to do them and I
never do them. There's a BLACK FRIDAY coming up, and I'm going to be buying. Definitely. I will show you guys a haul video on youtube at least by Sunday max. I haven't done any makeup updates either. I'm going to have to fix that too. :|


Kisses to all. <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

Alright, today was my birthday, so let me start on saying happy birthday to me.
so many peopleeeeee, im so surprised.. said happy birthday, even people and teachers i didnt know! I was flabbergasted.

My friends put together a largeeee banner !
OMFG i was definitely surprised <3 thank you once again. :)
I actually got my digital camera, im soooo in love with it.
Thank you aunt!
Me and my aunt cleared things up.
im so much closer to my family. :]

I had such a great birthday.
I didnt have a party but i can honestly say this was the best birthday party ever.
I'm happy. I am. I have the bestest boyfriend, family, and friends.
I am a happy girl, I really am. :]

:O A few point outers, future tutorials.

I fixed my laptop, well my mother did. and I love her!

I'm going to be doing a curling hair tutorial on extensions, :) BE PREPARED!

I'm going to be doing a shitload of makeup tutorials too. :)

My birthday is in 7 days! (november 16) I have no idea what I want, or what I'm going to do in fact!

I'm not in school today, have to head to the doctor's and check something out!

I'll be on to tell you more about what you have missed and what you should be looking forward for.

Kisses to all, Sue-ki<3

LONG TIME NO TALK, update.

okay i didnt purposely not blog.
I've been through it all. LIKE LITERALLY.

But im back, so thats good. missed me? i missed you too.
alot has happened so far.

im in a relationship. :) and happy. uhm, halloween was killer. :) and i was a showgirl.
so iwasnt lady gaga, or that bunny, but im planning on being a bunny for next year.
anyhow, im dying my hair again. i know im crazy. :) but imgoing to go darker, like black :) i also havent gotten my contacts yet. im working on it.

my birthday is technically in 14 days. i have no idea what i want.
i need some mac lipsticks, i think thats what im gonna ask for, for my birthday

i mean, im tired of replacing my mac shades with avon concealer, but hey, im desperate. i really dont like dark lips on me.

my ovaries were like burning today, it was too much to handle, i dont know how i got rid of the pain. TIME. lol.

ive been through so much trouble. like losing my parents trust after some incident i rather not speak of afetr homecoming, and then i got more in trouble when my mom found out i was at a bar with baby and wesley and kayla one day when i told my parents i was going to a football game, but whatever. so my sister is 4 months pregnant now, well actually shes 3 months and 3 weeks. :)

im sitll hoping for a girl.
well i need to come up with a youtube video asap because i havent been on that shizzle in a while.

i twitter alot though so thats how you can catch up with me.

twitter.com/zomgwatabarbie

well im going to be twittering & watching the messengers.
OH paranormal activity is horrible to watch. i couldnt sleep for a couple of days but im better now, im looking forward to the 4th kind though.

kisses to all<3