I need a good cry

Okay, i thought everything was going for the better..
everything seemed to just turn around and get worse.

my family, i feel as if they are against me.
screaming at me.. accusing me, whatever the case may be.
i honestly cannot wait to get the fuck out. this year coming up for school, i'm leaving home early, and coming home late, so i can avoid them for 3/4 of the day. therefore, by the time i get home, i have enough time only to shower, eat, do homework, and a little free time on the xbox or my laptop before i sleep.
thats my plan, to avoid the people i live with as much as possible.

I talk to this guy, who moved, and i cant see him like i used to. which sucks hardcore.

xbox is making me stress, and the stress has been making me suck badly online.
im this close to selliing it.

i suck at life.

i mean, have you ever had those moments where you feel like you were in an emo person's shoes and you just wanted to cry everything out? i feel like doing that... right now.
and i am stressing, dying for school to come so it cant take me away from cruel people.

yes, i like to run away from my problems

my little sister has been treating me like shit lately too. it kinda hurts, like i may not show it.

i may laugh alot or smile alot, but dammit, im hurting bad.
i dont know if im just being a girl.. or im taking shit over the top.
but im sensitive and i easily stress for nething.

my whole world is literally crashing down on my shoulders. im piercing my own lip next week and i dont care who tells me no.

p.s i wanna cry so bad, but im not alone..

SUSHI NIGHT

ALright, omfg. I came home a few hours and I needed to share my experience.

I went to a sushi resturaunt in New Brunswick, New Jersey.
Me and my gals were dressed up and everything.
The resturaunt was beautiful, calm, relaxing.
It was the perfect way for us to be together to just bond.
Anyways, we didn't know what to order.
The first thing though was we wanted some California rolls.
That was the entree along with a salmon terriyaki dish.
Our appetizers first was this soup.
It had uhm, like tofu in it and seaweed.
The worsttttt thing I have ever put in my mouth.
It tasted liek pee and me and my girls almost died. They were watching us eat this nasty soup.
And we were dying of laughter because we tried saying "mm" and "yum" and "interestinggg.."
muahahaha >:D
anyways, after that... we got our california rolls..
Our california rolls were really good. They had this green thick sour thing on the side which i thought was smushed avocados... it wasnt huns.

i took the whole thing and put it on oneeeee california roll and started choking and freaking out.
omfggg, i was horrified, the taste killed me and i thought the raw fish on the side wasn't sour or anytrhing, but cool and fresh... it was sour too and spicyy! it drove me crazyyyyy omfg..
my throat burned and i drank my whole drink entirely.. thank god the asians weren't there to see that because i didn't want to disrespect them. Thanks to the sauce, i ruined my appetite of wanting any more california rolls.

now we were all served with salmon terriyaki which was this lovely salmon, cooked well, fried..yum, and it had what tasted like soy sauce. The soy sauce killed it, i scraped it away with ym chop sticks. The brocoli was real good and the carrots that came aside. We had our own rice bowls and i was a pro at the cho sticks. I put too much soy sauce on my white rice, and stopped eating it after it was 1/4 empty. The bottom was mostly drenched. The tab was like 60$ for 3 alone. The food wasn't even that good. LAST time, i go there. Unless I order something else.

After we left the place, we drove home.

omfg forget that.
My sister, she had to pee, because we just kept laughing about stupid things and we were making funny faces and everything with the food. I actually ate tofu. lol. gross.
Anyways, the other sister, she dropped the chopsticks, and the asian dude saw. it was hilarious. She was trying to get my other sister to pick it up, and the asian walks up to us and gives her a new pair. aahahahahaha . it was hilarious. omfg. There was one asian guy. he was soo hot. omfg.
im glad i looked good. anyways. my sister, she had to pee because she was laughing hard. she peed! omfggggg. muahahhahaha.
As we were leaving, i kicked this thing and it almost knocked over. The dude was looking and i was trying to play it off. lmfao.

okay, nowww. as we were driving home, my sister had to pee. I blasted her music and we started screaming at people. lol. she kept laughing and me and my sis were trying to tickle her as she drove. tickle her to the point she peed. we almost did it, but she ran sooo fast when we got home and she made it to the bathroom just in time. to tell you the truth, i think she pissed onherself a bit, but was afraid to admit it.

this night was so much fun ...

well im so tireddd ! so ill update sooner or later. kisses to all. muahzzzz. xoxo suki<3

UPDATE.

AHH !
Alright.
Hey lovelies.
I got uber duber super sick since like Saturday but I'm getting better... Alot better actualy.
So the worst is over. It seems like the good news keeps pouring in, like schools around the corner which makes me really excited because I hate and not doing anything but making you guys videos and playing videogames. Don't get me wrong, I love making videos for you guys, but I miss homework and social acitivites and all of that mumbo jumbo. Anyhow, I GOT MY LAPTOP.
I'm happy, I posted a YT video on it, relating to it and extensions. YES, EXTENSIONS. I'll post a pic of these cute ones I grabbed my hands on. And also, i ordered more, not sure if i'm going to where them toschool. who knows, teenagers are evil and if someone ripped my extensions out, I will be dirty.

Anyhow, I'm going to the mall sooner or later, probably dying my hair differently. I'm crazy i know. I always do something different to my hair but I easily get bored of it. I'm thinking about leaving my bangs blonde and dying the rest brown, then ill have the bloind extensions , so it should look pretty cool. anyways, im off. take care babes. Kisses xoxoxo.

STRESSS FREEE

Ah hey people, I managed to finished my summer assignments. JEEZ/ Feels great. Also, they rescheduled my dentist appointment. It feels great! I was so nervousss/ AH/ well anyways, This summer I hope to finish it off with a quick tan before school. :] I've been super busy lately. I'm getting my laptop hopefully this Friday coming up, I'm sooo excited :] I'll be making YT vids out of the assssss. :} well see ya. I have a slumber party to tend to. Much love. KISSES

Good morning, good noon, good eve, good night once again. Last night, I didn't end up hanging out with my friends, I decided to cram on some school assignments due in September. Ok, that's a lie. I was too busy glued to my screen playing saintsrow2 like a madman. Bad? I think so. But anyways, the good part at least I'm on the last mission. : ) That's good right? I think so. Anyhow. My To do list is posted in this blog. I need this and I wish I can shit all this money out but I'm looking for another job. Babysitting was not for me. Well here it is!

Pink digital camera. I need another digital camera. It'll be really helpful for my hair and makeup tutorials on youtube since it's youtube capture. : }

pink controller. I'm tired of looking at my white controller. GAH I need color. 50-60$

Hellokitty covers. Oh mannnnn. :) so beautiful. 200-250$

Pink dell laptop? Either that or just an hp notebook. 800$

Chi silk infusion mix. I ran out, and I need this pronto. No more then 40$

Babyliss flat iron. Not this one specifically. the one I'm aiming for is 75$

And last but not least, my xbox 1 year membership live. The 25th of August my live will expire and I will have to renew it pronto. 50$






Well Talk to ya later. I got some work to work on.
Kisses.

There's so much on my mind now.

My summer book I am currently reading.

Good morning , good afternoon, good evening, or good night perhaps depending on what time of the day you are currently reading this. There's so much on my mind, like I have mentioned. This summer I've made a to do list. I'll probably post it up here for curiosity to see. Also, I have this book I'm currently reading. It's called, "Brave New World" by Audous Huxley. I don't really like the whole science-fiction plot but it is a must for me for my sophmore year. This summer I'm dying to get my lip pierced.Heck, I'll probably do it myself. I tried to back in January but that didn't work out well, for I gave up half way and my stupid self didn't have anything to put in the hole afterwards.

I realize I'm a little too fast. I'm getting a little too curious, ya know?

Like my older sister says, "Susan, you're acting all growed up." Yes.. "groweddd."

This guy that I have been liking for like four months started school already and we barely have time to talk until yesturday he all of a sudden wants to be all mushy gushy with me. I didn't know what to do with that and I just built up anger and frustration on him instead of supporting him with school and such. He tells me blogs are stupid but I like to write.

My ex came in the picture the other day. I don't know what to do out this because I mean we've been distant for like a year or so and he unexpectedly just came into my life. It's nice though, to see what has changed since then.

I'm stressing, I mean not like grown up stressing- migrant causing stress. But like clean stressing. My summer has become a complete failure. There's roughly 3 weeks left and I have so much things I want to do that I know I wont be able to do. Also, I got to find a way to understand this epic reading assignment. I mean, this summer, thankfully, I only had 2 classes that I had to do assignments for next year. (No not summer school homework, it's a required assignment for the upcoming year.) Well anyways, I already finished one class's assignments, which I am so proud of myself. (I don't know how I managed.) But it took me a decent 3 weeks 24/7 to complete it. I wonder how long this Brave New World is going to take me. I'm going to try finish reading it today and tomorrow.

I had a weird dream last night. It was winter, and I was in a thong pulling pranks with this white guy I've never seen in my life. I don't know, weird.

Well It's 11:55am now. So I'm still in bed. I need a pink computer desk.. I'm so throwing this one out afterwards sometime around next month.

Well, I'm off. Today, I'm hanging out with my old friend Victoria and a close friend named Chino. That should be fun. Chino came back from Texas and surprised me by calling me and to open the back door. I was in the middle of a halo game, and we still won by the time I got back. But it was amazing the way he planned it. Victoria and I were best friends since literally Kindergarten. After our trio with Cassandra split (she had to moved), we kind of went into our separate ways slowly, but I'm hoping that can change after all these years.

Alright, now I'm off. Love ya's.

Kisses to all.

Daily makeup routine

Hey loves, it's me sue. I decided to post my first blog on my daily makeup routine. If I'm not going out, and I just want to look fresh and casual, I've included the makeup below in pictures and words. I'm babysitting my sister's puppy, and since chowder(the puppy) is sleepying, I have the time to do this for you. :) Hope you enjoy.




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I finish my look off with a bonne bell lipgloss. I love the way they smell. 7$ at any store.

My favorite nude lipstick, creme de nude by mac. 15$ . I never leave home without it. I end up buying one like every other month!If you're looking for a great nude lipstick, try it, or myth.

This bronzer, I recently ran out, I'm going to have to buy more, by victoria secret! 15$ I love it. Very pigmented, and I always put it on my cheeks.

I use lashblast, waterproof by covergirl. Really good for the eyelashes, curl my eyelashes with ELF eyelashcurler 8$

Smolder by mac. I use a little of this, and afterwards, smudge it a bit as I reach further away from inner eyelids. 15$

Almay liquid eyeliner. I create wings on the outer eyes, followed up by a thin line above lashes. 5$